Power

Power in breath, and of it. Imagine myself steeped in the heat and density of my own fog, my own breath, safe and happy, small and powerful, alive.

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Imagine a woman who believes it is right and good she is a woman.
A woman who honors her experience and tells her stories.
Who refuses to carry the sins of others within her body and life.

Imagine a woman who has acknowledged the past's influence on the present.
A woman who has walked through her past.
Who has healed into the present.

Imagine a woman who names her own gods.
A woman who imagines the divine in her image and likeness.
Who designs her own spirituality and allows it to inform her daily life.

Imagine a woman in love with her own body.
A woman who believes her body is enough, just as it is.
Who celebrates her body's rhythms and cycles as an exquisite resource.

Imagine a woman who honors the body of the Goddess in her changing body.
A woman who celebrates the accumulation of her years and her wisdom.
Who refuses to use her precious life-energy disguising the changes in her body and life.

Imagine a woman who values the women in her life.
A woman who sits in circles of women.
Who is reminded of the truth about herself when she forgets.

Imagine yourself as this woman.

sexy grumpy

Everything is extremely UP and DOWN and twisted and convoluted and weird, and I'm not really sure what to make of it. Questions and questions and questions and more questions fill me up and I want to burst, because there are no obvious answers, so what's a Girl to do? Somebody help me with a Yes, No, Maybe. I need the universe to lend me a hand, whisper into my eyelashes, breathe into my heels and show me my own direction, because I'm spinning in circles. That may very well be part of the trip, but I've got to move forward, and soon. Hoy me siento muy sexy, y gruñóna también.

Scope #7

...of all the objects in the world made of 22-karat gold, a bathtub in Japan is the largest. Weighing in at over 300 pounds, it's in the Funabara Hotel 100 miles south of Tokyo. I suggest you regard it as your personal symbol of power...it will remind you to stay true to your task, which is to your cleanse yourself extravagantly as you purge your heart of all motivations that aren't pure gold.

Late Fragment

...And did you get what you wanted from this life, even so?

I did.

And what did you want?

To call myself beloved, to feel myself beloved on the earth.

[Raymond Carver]

Scope #5

...Keep in mind the advice of inventor George Washington Carver: Anything will give up its secrets if you love it enough.

tip, tap, step

I'm learning, slowly moving forward, slowly filling up with love, and patience, and distance from the good and the bad, and faith in the events of the universe, and faith in myself and my ability to receive and manipulate whatever may come my way. The best part is the anger; that is, the anger leaving my body, receding from my mind, dripping out of my pores and dissipating. I learn a bit each day, from each action and interaction, and I'm grateful for each moment I can spend aware of the progress I make. I am moving forward, definitively and with intention, and I'm thrilled about it. I live to learn, and I learn so that I may live better, easier, happier. I control my life, and I'm ready for what lies ahead (mostly. A little help is much appreciated along the way).
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